Kira*Ning

I’ve never been anywhere close to being an actual poet, but last night I was feeling a little sad and felt like writing something that wasn’t exactly prose. Today I am not quite as sad, but I figured I’d post my little attempt at art.

Goodbye good man, never meant to be my man-
It is time to let go.
So many thousand miles away you stand,
No never must you ever have thought of holding my hand.
Goodbye good man, these words once came out of your mouth-
“It wouldn’t be the same.”
And I will never know what I never knew.
Good man, never to be my man. Wherever you stand, keep your eyes on God and His greater plan.
And now, on my way I go.

Goodbye, good man, not meant to be my man. 

I have a problem.

My problem is that I am not really “with it” with life right now.

I like my job. I like Singapore. I like my church. I like my friends. I very much love my family. The weather could be tons better, but it certainly is not worse than I expected.

Still, I am so…not with it. I am bored, I am dissatisfied, I am not really keen on trying anything, I am more than usually critical and judgmental, I am fed up with myself.

I don’t want to eat and at the same time I want to eat more than I should. I can’t wait to start Japanese class but the thought of going makes me tired. I yearn to start a book but I give up 10 pages later.

I don’t think that I am going to gain satisfaction with anyone or anything if I do not first be satisfied in Christ. If I don’t seek Him, and Him alone, not the emotional highs of spiritual experiences and well played music.

But I am unwilling to do that too. To be very honest in my heart I know that I doubt that God can satisfy me. I don’t intentionally feel that way. I just do.

Ain’t got no Christian pretences to lean on at this point. Please God come and help me help myself.

denyandfollow:

teachers are not as valued as they should be and i don’t think we’re doing education correctly here in north america.

If America’s bad…Singapore is….sigh. 

(via myhappiestnuclearwinter)

pinkroseswhitelilacs:

Today i woke up to news that a good friend had lost the battle with leukemia and passed away.

But i wouldn’t dwell on his death, painful as it might be. because i think for him, it’ll finally be the coming of peace and no more pain.

I have met many many inspirational people in my life. When…

Yea I thought this needed to be shared.

Dad: I’m watching Twilight.
Sophia + Me: O.O Why are you watching Twilight??!! It’s stupid!! (Insert random protestations regarding sparkly vampires)
Dad: I want to see how stupid it is.
Me: OTZ
Plus! Random commentary-
Dad: Oh the girl is become a vampire in season (he means film) four.
Dad: Huh the girl have a baby already ah?
Dad: How do you spell Twilight huh?

exo-ho:

This bothers me ALOT.
Okay so I watched this drama a long time ago and I really liked it cause well, fk, everything was to my liking. I can’t remember if its kdrama or jdrama, but here’s the plot.

This guy is poor and on his job of selling fish that he illegally got, he accidentally spills the…

I believe you’re talking about Tatta Hitotsu no Koi. 

suitdistracted:

booksandbuttonups:

scatteredwords:

oh god

My kids will dress like this.

HIPSTER BABIES

Love the tortoise-shell frames, particularly, at the top. And then her vintage camera…

I think it’s both ridiculous and wonderful to dress children so well. To deconstruct the outfits a bit, the boy’s plaid is pretty classic, and the suspenders are the primary point of style, really. The girl’s clothes are more trendy, but it’s the shoes that actually make the look seem genuine vintage.

T.S. Eliot (via mishproductions)

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